every time i trust someone, they give me a reason why i shouldn´t. so i´ve learned not to trust people because when you trust you let your guard down and that leaves you vulnerable
everytime i see you and my friends is with me i laugh, loud. not becuase i saw you, or because you make me smile. just because i want you to see that i´m actually happy without you. or at least i want you to believe that i´m happy. you don´t need to know that i cry myself to sleep every night, or that i hate myself for letting you go. or that wasn´t exactly what happened... i´d never stopped loving you, i still love you. but you never asked me to stay, you took me for granted. just because i´m always close doesn´t mean you should take me for granted. i got sick of all your broken promises, it hurts like hell to know that you didn´t even care when i left, after i spent soooo much time to make everything work, after i forgave you a thousand times for everything you did to hurt me. i have to stop trusting people so much, i always end up hurt and vulnerable. what´s different this time? i won´t tell anyone how hurt i really am, like i used to. this time i´m gonna smile and move on.
